maandag 3 maart 2014
Falling " in love".
Life-changing events: Meeting a soulmate.
Falling "in love"..
The mystery of falling " in love" happened to me in the beginning of the nineties, when I met a dear soulcompagnion. I was present as an assistant during a workshop-course of Spiritual Psychotherapy and the theme was: Unfinished business in the aura. Before we actually met I heard a lot of different stories about this spiritual teacher and his charisma, which at that time sounded overdone to me.
Ironic how easily we judge others, until we become participants and experience ourselves....
When we first met in person there was an intense experience of delight. He was giving a lecture and the words that took me "out of my self-identity " were: Let us gather together and move a wavelength away from here...
From that point on I experienced and understood all that was said deep within my heart, although my rational mind couldn't repeat or reproduce any of his words later on.
A mind-blowing experience and a deep life-changing event.
It felt as if something was unlocked deep inside of me, something that was only to be touched and unlocked by this living soul. It awakened a deep and pure feeling of Being within me, of all that I AM.... and I fell " in love".
At the same time - on a personal level - it was very confusing, because I was married for many years and we were having two beautiful children. I was feeling happy in that situation.
Also at that time many fellow-students left their partners for " spiritual reasons" , I had reasonable doubts about making such an important decision based on emotions , being a counsellor and a communication teacher. I knew and understood that "grounded" spirituality ment to bring heaven on earth, staying present in the present, learning to become a Mystic in the marketplace.
So this overwhelming experience felt like an earth-quake...
It triggered all kinds of questions in me about the Cosmic law of Love and Attraction. What was happening to me? Why now? How does this feeling of attraction and falling "in love" work on the inner levels? What was the intent? What was it mirroring
How did this "fall" happen and what was the intent or meaning?
Now, looking at this life-changing event in retrospect, I understand this lesson in love...
From the perspective of my unconditional loving heart, the Christ within, I was able to see, feel and recognize him as he was/is. I experienced the beauty and love of his Presence.
So then from my belly another energy started to work. A strong force of attraction based on “need”. Here there was a deep emotional state of lack in me, of not-belonging, feeling separated and excluded. A soul-energy-pattern based on "obedience and serving others" as well as feelings of unworthyness about myself.
In this soul-school of teaching, through life-experiences, I learned to recognize this energy-pattern as the neglected inner child, carrying a deep soul- suffering from earlier times. It brought all sorts of emotions to the surface that from time to time obscured my heart, feeling frustrated and misunderstood. During this process of inner healing a re-balancing and a transformation took place. Romantic love changed into unconditional love on a deep soul-level.
More and more I recognized that these feelings had to do with me and the space I gave to all that I AM. It was made possible by him, but still had to do with me... So in stead of a struggle between these two different perspectives I invested energy, in many different ways, to integrate them, giving space and allowing Presence and Awareness to flow in and flow through....
Falling in (the consciousness) of Love invoked surrendering to all that I AM, experiencing that no-body falls out of love... although we often "think" we do.
A joyful and creative living!
I am grateful.
Falling "in love"..
The mystery of falling " in love" happened to me in the beginning of the nineties, when I met a dear soulcompagnion. I was present as an assistant during a workshop-course of Spiritual Psychotherapy and the theme was: Unfinished business in the aura. Before we actually met I heard a lot of different stories about this spiritual teacher and his charisma, which at that time sounded overdone to me.
Ironic how easily we judge others, until we become participants and experience ourselves....
When we first met in person there was an intense experience of delight. He was giving a lecture and the words that took me "out of my self-identity " were: Let us gather together and move a wavelength away from here...
From that point on I experienced and understood all that was said deep within my heart, although my rational mind couldn't repeat or reproduce any of his words later on.
A mind-blowing experience and a deep life-changing event.
It felt as if something was unlocked deep inside of me, something that was only to be touched and unlocked by this living soul. It awakened a deep and pure feeling of Being within me, of all that I AM.... and I fell " in love".
At the same time - on a personal level - it was very confusing, because I was married for many years and we were having two beautiful children. I was feeling happy in that situation.
Also at that time many fellow-students left their partners for " spiritual reasons" , I had reasonable doubts about making such an important decision based on emotions , being a counsellor and a communication teacher. I knew and understood that "grounded" spirituality ment to bring heaven on earth, staying present in the present, learning to become a Mystic in the marketplace.
So this overwhelming experience felt like an earth-quake...
It triggered all kinds of questions in me about the Cosmic law of Love and Attraction. What was happening to me? Why now? How does this feeling of attraction and falling "in love" work on the inner levels? What was the intent? What was it mirroring
How did this "fall" happen and what was the intent or meaning?
Now, looking at this life-changing event in retrospect, I understand this lesson in love...
From the perspective of my unconditional loving heart, the Christ within, I was able to see, feel and recognize him as he was/is. I experienced the beauty and love of his Presence.
So then from my belly another energy started to work. A strong force of attraction based on “need”. Here there was a deep emotional state of lack in me, of not-belonging, feeling separated and excluded. A soul-energy-pattern based on "obedience and serving others" as well as feelings of unworthyness about myself.
In this soul-school of teaching, through life-experiences, I learned to recognize this energy-pattern as the neglected inner child, carrying a deep soul- suffering from earlier times. It brought all sorts of emotions to the surface that from time to time obscured my heart, feeling frustrated and misunderstood. During this process of inner healing a re-balancing and a transformation took place. Romantic love changed into unconditional love on a deep soul-level.
More and more I recognized that these feelings had to do with me and the space I gave to all that I AM. It was made possible by him, but still had to do with me... So in stead of a struggle between these two different perspectives I invested energy, in many different ways, to integrate them, giving space and allowing Presence and Awareness to flow in and flow through....
Falling in (the consciousness) of Love invoked surrendering to all that I AM, experiencing that no-body falls out of love... although we often "think" we do.
A joyful and creative living!
I am grateful.
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